tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post2367376688415927790..comments2024-02-27T03:19:11.116-08:00Comments on CHRONICALLY SICK, BUT STILL THINKING I THINK: I'm Going to Be Candid With You, This Is About Memories and Illness (yawn, booorrriiinnnggg)Sebastien Millonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06384643621878633512noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-31063693213507131522006-11-14T18:38:00.000-08:002006-11-14T18:38:00.000-08:00Babs: You are so right. I think it is the fear in ...Babs: You are so right. I think it is the fear in the our mind, the fear about how we have no control over our illnesses, we have no say, we don't have a 'fix' that we can do, that is the most mentally challenging thing about being ill. The uncertainty, the void, it's difficult, more difficult than can even be explained in words.Sebastien Millonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06384643621878633512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-54726706348748687782006-11-14T17:09:00.000-08:002006-11-14T17:09:00.000-08:00Memories light the corners of my mind...la, la, la...Memories light the corners of my mind...la, la, la, laaaaaa, la... oh, sorry about that. <br />Many people don't realize how much inner strength is required to be physically ill for long periods. Fighting the thoughts of "will this ever end? Will I ever have my life back?", etc, takes huge amounts of strength. And yes, I also think a puppy would help!Cassandrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09875511247524731958noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-80053636725737126332006-11-14T08:15:00.000-08:002006-11-14T08:15:00.000-08:00Helen: Hahaha, I'm not sure I can take psycho dog ...Helen: Hahaha, I'm not sure I can take psycho dog off your hands, although I'd love to!!!<br /><br />Sonja: Thank you so much for your response. I really wish we could sit down and talk, I'm sure we could share a lot of things we've been through... It's so nice hearing from someone who understands so deeply, and although sometimes it's hard explaining things, it's good because there are bound to be people who will understand! I'm so happy that you are triumphing over your obstacles, and it seems like you do it with so much cheer and aplomb, and I know it must be terribly difficult, with wickedly bad moments, but you are amazing!!!Sebastien Millonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06384643621878633512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-86769241433013618792006-11-13T22:35:00.000-08:002006-11-13T22:35:00.000-08:00WOW Sebastien, what an excellent post! You are fee...WOW Sebastien, what an excellent post! You are feeling a lot of the same things that I am with my chronic illness...a new appreciation of all things, a lot of gratitude for life, and even the illness itself for making you a stronger person! Many people don't comprehend these feelings unless they have gone through the process(Gratitude for an illness? What are you talking about?) But it's really true. I definitely feel that my compassion for others and the planet has increased since I got ill. I put myself in other people's shoes all the time and try not to judge others. Life has actually gotten better since I learned these things. I feel like we are surrounded by magic in the faces and actions of those around us if we only learn how to look for it.<br />I may never get totally well like you will (I attach a note of positivity to this because I don't like to hear myself say negative things - we start believing them) but I made my peace with it long ago. I'm past the "why me's". Well, why not me? <br />I can see that your illness has made you a very strong and kind person. I didn't know you before, and I'm sure the root of kindness was in you before. But it seems to me like you have really cultivated it. I wish we lived closer as I would love to sit down and have a heart-to-heart with you!<br />Your bud,<br />SonjaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-63945898427203094302006-11-13T20:19:00.000-08:002006-11-13T20:19:00.000-08:00you should tell your parents how a dog would help ...you should tell your parents how a dog would help you feel better. ;) Especially a cute, yellow one!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-30966638932585470022006-11-13T19:19:00.000-08:002006-11-13T19:19:00.000-08:00Thanks Nicole :) I will definitely be better!!!
...Thanks Nicole :) I will definitely be better!!! <br /><br />No no no don't apologize... It's so true, memory shifts and changes, we don't even realize it. Each extra time we try to remember an incident, the memory becomes a copy of a copy of a copy... ad infinitum.<br /><br />So it is scary how many people are in jail based on MEMORY! Ahhh, that is scary!Sebastien Millonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06384643621878633512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-74680820751547501802006-11-13T17:45:00.000-08:002006-11-13T17:45:00.000-08:00First off, glad that you're going to get better. Y...First off, glad that you're going to get better. Your illness always has me worried. :( :)<br /><br />Second, funny you should mention how our memories fuzz up the facts. On one of those same forensic shows I mentioned earlier, one of the investigators talked about how dangerous eyewitness testimony can be because people can't be counted on to accurately recall details. Way too many innocent people are still behind bars.<br /><br />Sorry for rambling about something that was BARELY related to your post. ;)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-38697569911409912632006-11-13T16:06:00.000-08:002006-11-13T16:06:00.000-08:00Mrmanuel: Thank you so much. It feels so good to e...Mrmanuel: Thank you so much. It feels so good to explain myself sometimes...<br /><br />People in the Sun: Thank you so much for the well wishing, it really means a lot! Haha, I hope you are right about the nostalgia I'll have for this (well, not really!)... Oh, Pit Bull would be fun, yes yes we're getting a German Shepherd if we get a dog, you will be thoroughly pleased!!!<br /><br />Mariana: Haha, I love that video with those girls and guns, that was awesome!!! Tear dripping down my cheek as I think about having such an awesome girlfriend as one of those girls in the video, I want a girlfriend who takes pleasure in firing an AK-47 while wearing a bikini. That's hot!<br />Yeah my family is French, I am French, and I miss my grandparents, but my mom's mom is coming to visit soon!!!!Sebastien Millonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06384643621878633512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-44924423802509032682006-11-13T15:35:00.000-08:002006-11-13T15:35:00.000-08:00When you reminisced about your Dirty Harry vendett...When you reminisced about your Dirty Harry vendetta I had this mental picture of that girl in Tarantino's "Jackie brown", the one on TV who said she loved her riffle. Give them hell, I say! Here's hoping you're back to health in no time. BTW are your grandparents French or do they just live there?Mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14679839426291667211noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-78647228588875163572006-11-13T14:54:00.000-08:002006-11-13T14:54:00.000-08:00By the way, I've read your blog before but haven't...By the way, I've read your blog before but haven't said that yet: I wish you well. I hope in the near future, when you regain your strength, you will miss the days of sitting by the computer and writing and reading. I hope you find a terrible, distracting job with terrible co-workers and I hope that will make you look back at your sick days with sincere nostalgia. And I hope you get a Pit Bull, but I'll accept other dogs, as long as they're medium-sized and up.<br /><br />Good luck.People in the Sunhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06961234839608654790noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31906869.post-87809441049553446342006-11-13T14:18:00.000-08:002006-11-13T14:18:00.000-08:00Very well thought out post. Good job!Very well thought out post. Good job!MrManuelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12003292550689890179noreply@blogger.com