Another French Lesson. Personal Stuff.

I gave another French lesson today. We are making good progress. Never thought I'd ever be teaching anybody French. It's great fun, specially teaching someone who is so willing to learn. As you can imagine or already know, teaching someone who isn't motivated is very difficult and definitely beyond my current capabilities.

And I felt pretty good today. I'm really getting better, I mean, it's such tiny increments, filled with ups and downs, still major frustrations at times, but I couldn't have given French lessons a couple months ago. So that's good. I felt really alive today. And there are more and more times where I'm able to get really excited about stuff like I used to when I was healthy.

Anyways. Other stuff... I had some bullshit personal problems lately that were really frustrating, but I decided I'm not putting up with that shit anymore. Frankly, I'm not taking anybody's shit anymore. This is what I've decided.

In that same vein, let me say that I will never ever again let anybody get away with insulting me about my illness. Like, saying I'm faking it or being lazy. That shit is crossing the line, and it's complete disrespect of who I am and all I've ever stood for and negates everything I've gone through with this illness. I was sooooo surprised each time I was insulted about my illness that I couldn't say anything. If I had opened my mouth to retort I would have unleashed a maddening frenzy of insults and threats, and possibly hurt someone, so I tried to keep my jaw locked. But I will be healthy again, and will always remember all the idiots who insulted me. Bitches are gonna get what's coming to them. I mean, I don't use revenge as motivation, mostly I just want to live my life and be happy, but I will never forget how badly I've been insulted. At least I learned who my real friends are.

And I wish I could talk more about the personal stuff but it wouldn't be right, not really fair to the other person. So I leave it at that, utterly vague and confusing.

Alan Parsons Project: Cask of Amontillado

French Lesson. Doctor's Appointment. Cartoon.

So, I'm helping a friend of a friend learn French. Today was the first 'lesson.' We're doing this at my house, which is the only way I can do something like this. The lesson went really well, and this guy I'm helping seems like he's going to learn very fast. He's a musician, so he probably has a very good ear, he seems to have a knack for the pronunciation and all that. Plus we get along really well, so I think it's going to be low stress and fun. I hope my health allows me to have enough energy to follow through with these lessons, we're planning on doing them once a week. It's so great to help someone learn, it's a really nice feeling!

I also had a doctor's appointment today, so I'm pretty tired right now. My doctor is sure I'm going to recover, he just doesn't know when, but he ordered up some more blood tests. He says everything has been moving in the right direction, both my symptoms and the blood work, so that's cool. I guess now that I've been having a lot less pain, well, the main thing that's frustrating are the days where I don't have enough energy to occupy myself. But, you know, that's the way it is, I just gotta rest my body on those days and take what it gives me. Plus I'm developing an opium addiction, which is awesome to say the least. I told my doctor about it and he was so enthusiastic, he said he gets high as a kite right before work, we had a good laugh about that! Anyways, it's really nice getting encouragement from the medical establishment.

Oh...

I just discovered this cartoon. Freakin' hilarious.

http://www.coredp.com/reels/sr_core_toon_reel/display_full.asp?mv=3.mov&nos=7